Day 8 scan today, I was so nervous. My Other Half just couldn't juggle his work commitments to be there, so my fabulous friend J came along. She had her instructions to write down the measurements of the follicles when the nurse read them out. Well, I had to be optimistic that there would be follicles to measure.
Turns out, things were ok. In fact very similar to my Day 8 scan on #2. My lining was better, 6.5 this time (so 13 as they are measured in halves). The only strange thing was my right ovary is just not interested, only 2 follicles this time. Anyway here are the stats:
L - 14 x11
L - 12 x 12
L - 12 x 12
L - 12 x 11
L - 11 x 11
L - 11 x 10
L - 11 x 9
L - 10 x 8
L - 8 x 8
L - 7 x 4
R - 12 x 11
R - 5
In fact, I think I am being a bit cautious but I have a feeling that it's slightly better than last time, perhaps you can let me know what you think? I would be happy with 6 eggs, like last time...anything more I would be over the moon.
So back on Saturday for the next scan, and retrieval either next Tues or Weds.
Hurdle 1 over.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Get ahead
Decided to treat myself.....look what I got.......
In case you are not sure what it is...it's a hat. What's so exciting about a hat you say? people buy them all the time.....but no not me. I seem to have been born with the biggest head in the world, when a hat says 'One Size Fits All' it's a breach of trading standards cause it never fits me. In fact, I am going to start a campaign for labels to be changed to say 'One Size Fits All (if you are normal and not called Becks). Every hat I try on, I huff and puff when it just perches on top and I sulk and put it back. But not today, I have a brown corduroy hat and I am so happy!! In fact I was so happy these lovely winter socks jumped in my basket too.
In case you are not sure what it is...it's a hat. What's so exciting about a hat you say? people buy them all the time.....but no not me. I seem to have been born with the biggest head in the world, when a hat says 'One Size Fits All' it's a breach of trading standards cause it never fits me. In fact, I am going to start a campaign for labels to be changed to say 'One Size Fits All (if you are normal and not called Becks). Every hat I try on, I huff and puff when it just perches on top and I sulk and put it back. But not today, I have a brown corduroy hat and I am so happy!! In fact I was so happy these lovely winter socks jumped in my basket too.
Oh and not even the eye ulcer which has made me look like elephant man can get me down, nor is the fact that I have to reapply for my job due to a restructure.....I've got my hat!!
P.S Happy Thanksgiving for tomorrow to all of you from the other side of the pond.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Rested and ready to go
We're back....we've been to a sunny Spanish island for the last 2 weeks and arrived back to the snow early yesterday morning. In fact, we nearly had to divert as the airport was closed due to the bad weather, but it re-opened just in time for touch down.
We had a great time, I can honestly say we didn't do a lot. Read lots of books, had lots of rest and enjoyed a few vinos during the warm Spanish nights. I had some weird dreams though, I am putting it down to the down reg drugs. I had a really strange one about a lawyer that I work with who worked out that there was a pattern to everything that was growing (trees, plants etc), everything was growing in 3's therefore they knew from previous studies that this meant that the world was going to end. Strange. I accidentally sat at table 3 the next morning then the flight number home had 3's in it....needless to say all is fine and it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Oh, and had another about a horse called Janey that I kept in my house....not as scary but equally weird.
My Other Half's Mum Dad, Sister and Brother in Law joined us for the last 5 days and we had a lot of fun, in fact one night we were a bit tiddly and ended up swapping our tops for t-shirts we were given......in the middle of a restaurant...the things you do when you are on holiday.
Wedding update - the invites went out before we went away and we have come back to a few replies.....exciting. Up to now, everyone has accepted, but we've still a way to go before we get all of them back.
Went to the hospital today for my baseline scan, all is well. There were more antral follicles than last time (6 and now 9), so I know they are not great numbers but we're continuing to go in the right direction. Stims start tomorrow night and retrieval is due on the 5th Dec....only 15 days away if all goes to plan.
Third time lucky? I hope so.
We had a great time, I can honestly say we didn't do a lot. Read lots of books, had lots of rest and enjoyed a few vinos during the warm Spanish nights. I had some weird dreams though, I am putting it down to the down reg drugs. I had a really strange one about a lawyer that I work with who worked out that there was a pattern to everything that was growing (trees, plants etc), everything was growing in 3's therefore they knew from previous studies that this meant that the world was going to end. Strange. I accidentally sat at table 3 the next morning then the flight number home had 3's in it....needless to say all is fine and it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Oh, and had another about a horse called Janey that I kept in my house....not as scary but equally weird.
My Other Half's Mum Dad, Sister and Brother in Law joined us for the last 5 days and we had a lot of fun, in fact one night we were a bit tiddly and ended up swapping our tops for t-shirts we were given......in the middle of a restaurant...the things you do when you are on holiday.
Wedding update - the invites went out before we went away and we have come back to a few replies.....exciting. Up to now, everyone has accepted, but we've still a way to go before we get all of them back.
Went to the hospital today for my baseline scan, all is well. There were more antral follicles than last time (6 and now 9), so I know they are not great numbers but we're continuing to go in the right direction. Stims start tomorrow night and retrieval is due on the 5th Dec....only 15 days away if all goes to plan.
Third time lucky? I hope so.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
3 months today
Honey,
3 months today will be our wedding day. At this time of the day I will be your wife, we will have stood in front of family and friends and told them how much we love each other. We will have heard the speeches, eaten the food, raised our champagne glasses and had our first dance.
I can't wait to be your wife. We have come such a long way, we've had some massive highs and heartbreaking lows but through it all we still loved each other. We made it, despite everything.
Whatever life throws at us, we can do it together. We can wipe away each others tears and laugh with each other when life is good to us.
Thank you for loving me and being willing to embark on the hardest journey of all. One day I hope we have a little bit of me and a little bit of you to love with all our hearts.
Until then, we have each other - I love you.
3 months today will be our wedding day. At this time of the day I will be your wife, we will have stood in front of family and friends and told them how much we love each other. We will have heard the speeches, eaten the food, raised our champagne glasses and had our first dance.
I can't wait to be your wife. We have come such a long way, we've had some massive highs and heartbreaking lows but through it all we still loved each other. We made it, despite everything.
Whatever life throws at us, we can do it together. We can wipe away each others tears and laugh with each other when life is good to us.
Thank you for loving me and being willing to embark on the hardest journey of all. One day I hope we have a little bit of me and a little bit of you to love with all our hearts.
Until then, we have each other - I love you.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I'll never ask for anything ever again
Dear Santa,
I know I haven't written to you for many many years but I have a very special request that I am hoping you can help me with.
I am trying to be a Mum and I started my 3rd IVF attempt last night. I felt a little sad when I went to do the injections, I suppose a little battle weary would sum it up. This is much more difficult that I ever thought it would be and so I think I need a little magic from you.
I went to the hospital on Friday and they said my egg collection date would be around the 5th Dec, so it seems it will be over by the 20th Dec.
Do you think you and Rudolph could drop by a few days early and give me the best Christmas present ever?
I realise this is a lot to ask as you are a busy man but I really hope you can help me make it 3rd time lucky.
Lots of love
Becks (aged 35 years 9 months)
I know I haven't written to you for many many years but I have a very special request that I am hoping you can help me with.
I am trying to be a Mum and I started my 3rd IVF attempt last night. I felt a little sad when I went to do the injections, I suppose a little battle weary would sum it up. This is much more difficult that I ever thought it would be and so I think I need a little magic from you.
I went to the hospital on Friday and they said my egg collection date would be around the 5th Dec, so it seems it will be over by the 20th Dec.
Do you think you and Rudolph could drop by a few days early and give me the best Christmas present ever?
I realise this is a lot to ask as you are a busy man but I really hope you can help me make it 3rd time lucky.
Lots of love
Becks (aged 35 years 9 months)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Winners and losers
Had a good weekend all in all. We went out with some close friends to the dog races on Saturday night, us girls did feel sorry for the poor things, but we had a good time picking the one's with the cute names and our favourite colours. I got the knack of it and backed 4 winners, but alas still came home with lighter pockets than when I went out.
I also went out running twice, which I really enjoyed...its a shame that I have to give up soon, as I can slowly see myself improving.
We did some shopping yesterday, the plan was to get my other half some new shoes for the wedding, which we achieved with relative ease. We made use of the extra free time and bought a couple of Christmas presents.
I decided to go into one of the large out of town mother and baby stores to get my godson a present. Places like this don't normally bother me, I just try to get in and out with minimal fuss. It seemed it slipped the store managers mind to clear the place of people for me, in fact I think they made sure it was absolutely heaving. I couldn't concentrate on what I was looking for....the noise from children and babies was very distracting. By the time I had chosen him a very cool gift, I was relieved to be getting in the queue to pay....except they like to prolong my agony....the queue was massive. The waiting was torture, everywhere I looked there were swollen bellies and tiny babies in carriers, it took all my effort to blink away the tears. The couple in front of me were buying a job lot....baby bath, nappies, food, changing mat, equipment for rock climbing (or so it seemed).
At last I made it to the front to pay, I felt a weight had been lifted...any time now I could get out. The assistant scanned my purchases, then smiled at me and said "could I possibly interest you in a store account?" I nearly ripped her limb from limb, instead I politely declined and staggered outside with an insane grin on my face.
There's a lot to be said for internet shopping!
I also went out running twice, which I really enjoyed...its a shame that I have to give up soon, as I can slowly see myself improving.
We did some shopping yesterday, the plan was to get my other half some new shoes for the wedding, which we achieved with relative ease. We made use of the extra free time and bought a couple of Christmas presents.
I decided to go into one of the large out of town mother and baby stores to get my godson a present. Places like this don't normally bother me, I just try to get in and out with minimal fuss. It seemed it slipped the store managers mind to clear the place of people for me, in fact I think they made sure it was absolutely heaving. I couldn't concentrate on what I was looking for....the noise from children and babies was very distracting. By the time I had chosen him a very cool gift, I was relieved to be getting in the queue to pay....except they like to prolong my agony....the queue was massive. The waiting was torture, everywhere I looked there were swollen bellies and tiny babies in carriers, it took all my effort to blink away the tears. The couple in front of me were buying a job lot....baby bath, nappies, food, changing mat, equipment for rock climbing (or so it seemed).
At last I made it to the front to pay, I felt a weight had been lifted...any time now I could get out. The assistant scanned my purchases, then smiled at me and said "could I possibly interest you in a store account?" I nearly ripped her limb from limb, instead I politely declined and staggered outside with an insane grin on my face.
There's a lot to be said for internet shopping!
Monday, October 15, 2007
About time....
......I posted an update.
Things have been really hectic, mainly with the weddings plans, my sister and I are wondering what on earth we'll do when it is over. I am itching to share some of the details with you, but too many people who will be there on the day read this, so I'll just have to promise to bore you with the photos afterwards.
I've also been doing a bit of exercise, I've been running for the last couple of weeks. I got stuck in the downward spiral of wanting to lose weight for the wedding but knowing I shouldn't really exercise because of trying to have a baby. Well, I decided that I wasn't going to have everything denied so I got my trainers on and hit the road. I've really enjoyed it, and the feeling of being back in control certainly helps. I will stop exercising when IVF # 3 comes around.
Talking of IVF #3......we're ready to go again. We decided to try again before Christmas, then if it doesn't work we'll wait till after the honeymoon. So, I start down regulating on October 29th...it has come round really quickly. Starting again fills me with dread, I hit a massive low after the last failure and it took me a while to get back to my old self and it scares me to think I might have to go there again. Still, no pain, no gain...but please let the gain come sometime.
I had a stressful incident at work last week. One of my colleagues said she had some gossip for me, then later showed me her blackberry which had a email announcing that one of our colleagues wives was pregnant. What's wrong with that you might say? Well she knew we had a failed IVF and it just felt insensitive. After a moan about it to my other half, I put it out of my mind as I thought that it was just clumsy. When I arrived in work the next day, she had forwarded the email to everyone, including me, she named it 'Nappy News'. Did she think I would have forgotten about it overnight? I was mad, so I sent her a (what I think was a subtle) response saying "If only it was that easy". I thought it might just remind her of what I had been through. What did I get back? Nothing. Well at least I felt better for saying something.
We're also going on holiday in 3 weeks, we're going to a spanish island for a 2 week break. The 2nd week, my other half's family are joining us, so I am really excited about that. I am just looking forward to a bit of sun (as it hasn't been sunny in England for 345 years...well it seems like it!) and a nice rest. It'll make the down regulating fly by as I'll probably start stims the day I come back.
I think that's about it for now, I am still around, reading from the sidelines, I'll be back in full flow soon to share the ups and downs of 3rd time lucky.
P.S can't believe its 6 months tomorrow since I had a cup of coffee!! oops got that wrong....its not 6 months just yet!
Things have been really hectic, mainly with the weddings plans, my sister and I are wondering what on earth we'll do when it is over. I am itching to share some of the details with you, but too many people who will be there on the day read this, so I'll just have to promise to bore you with the photos afterwards.
I've also been doing a bit of exercise, I've been running for the last couple of weeks. I got stuck in the downward spiral of wanting to lose weight for the wedding but knowing I shouldn't really exercise because of trying to have a baby. Well, I decided that I wasn't going to have everything denied so I got my trainers on and hit the road. I've really enjoyed it, and the feeling of being back in control certainly helps. I will stop exercising when IVF # 3 comes around.
Talking of IVF #3......we're ready to go again. We decided to try again before Christmas, then if it doesn't work we'll wait till after the honeymoon. So, I start down regulating on October 29th...it has come round really quickly. Starting again fills me with dread, I hit a massive low after the last failure and it took me a while to get back to my old self and it scares me to think I might have to go there again. Still, no pain, no gain...but please let the gain come sometime.
I had a stressful incident at work last week. One of my colleagues said she had some gossip for me, then later showed me her blackberry which had a email announcing that one of our colleagues wives was pregnant. What's wrong with that you might say? Well she knew we had a failed IVF and it just felt insensitive. After a moan about it to my other half, I put it out of my mind as I thought that it was just clumsy. When I arrived in work the next day, she had forwarded the email to everyone, including me, she named it 'Nappy News'. Did she think I would have forgotten about it overnight? I was mad, so I sent her a (what I think was a subtle) response saying "If only it was that easy". I thought it might just remind her of what I had been through. What did I get back? Nothing. Well at least I felt better for saying something.
We're also going on holiday in 3 weeks, we're going to a spanish island for a 2 week break. The 2nd week, my other half's family are joining us, so I am really excited about that. I am just looking forward to a bit of sun (as it hasn't been sunny in England for 345 years...well it seems like it!) and a nice rest. It'll make the down regulating fly by as I'll probably start stims the day I come back.
I think that's about it for now, I am still around, reading from the sidelines, I'll be back in full flow soon to share the ups and downs of 3rd time lucky.
P.S can't believe its 6 months tomorrow since I had a cup of coffee!! oops got that wrong....its not 6 months just yet!
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